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CONGREGATION

this is my #novembeat project. i don't have loads of free time so we'll see how far we get :)

it's just a music. i want to make an album type thing, so i'm gonna add to this as i go along. we'll see how it goes. i don't have many instruments at the moment but i want to make it physically.

kind of just rambled here :)

§DAY THE SECOND

sooo today i worked more on the same song, i reckon it's basically done now? they final few repeats of the chorus need to be uh manipulated but other than that im pleased with it. pretty choppy, but it's actually how i was hoping it would sound so that's real cool :D

i found a recording of a frog on scratch. that's not strictly a thing from my room but i like the croak so it's staying, that's the rules.

§DAY THE THIRD

i reckon actually that fucking around with weird effects is going to be an ongoing process whenever i get bored of actually furthering the tracks. i did some more of that today, and it gets frustrating because audacity has some limitations that honestly don't make sense to me, like i don't even understand whats happening it just pops up an error.

anyway today i started work on a second track.

§DAY THE FOURTH

today was mostly spent getting lyrics down, making some micro changes to timings in the earlier sections, and recording lyrics for the next sections. there are a few door slams and kerfuffles in the backgrounds of the latest section, which i opted to keep in after i still got some in my third recording and my throat was getting dry. tomorrow the plan is to give the sermon some percussion :)

§track listing

§lyrics

i'd like to say a few words
before we begin
turn to someone you haven't seen before
and bow to them
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here

let me ask you a question
do you think you're healthy?
tell me when would you last say
that you ate your five a day, five a day?
don't be shy
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here

one two three four five six one
two three four five six one two
three four five six one two three
four five six one two three four
five six one two three four five
six one two three four five six

i want to draw your attention
to the funeral this coming thursday
you should join us, it'll be nice
your face has been missing lately
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here
cuz we're all friends here, all friends here

lost in the valley of death like a shadow
i can't even see my own mind
i don't understand what's so special about me
they tell me i'm one of a kind

i know that someone loves me
i know that someone cares
someone cares

and now we stand in worship

you want the light of the world to come and light up your life
then you should tell everyone that you wear his name with pride

i bet you think that you're special i guarantee that you're not
remember that when you die you're gonna have to face god

and as we suck on this bread that is our saviour's flesh
recall the words from the mount that if you're meek you are blessed

i want to fill you with fear do as i say or you'll burn
maybe that's too on the nose feel free to slander my words
i'm only doing my bit to grant you eternal life
and if you choose to ignore me it's not my soul on the line
now maybe you understand the angle i'm coming from
please give me all of your money to keep your conscience strong
don't want to prey on the weak that's just the way that if goes
you're in poverty for a reason all that you've got is your hope

all that you've got is your hope and your faith
in a loving god's grace
in a man above the clouds who understands your heartache
so when you can't affort to feed your kids and want to let the devil in
just pray for help so you'll resist temptation in your feebless
god will provide if you believe so don't rely on charity
community is for the weak your strength in god will carry thee

stand with me now as we read a passage of the divine
he was a man of the people but he was not of his time

and as we swallow this blood think back to how it was then
i trust you're not of the faithless so let me hear your amen.

you know there are certain things you do when you're four or five that you don't do when you're six or seven or twenty seven because those are the kind of things that would get you frowned upon. take running around with no trousers on as a random example off the top of my head, if i did that now i'd probably lose my job and worse than that i would lose my dignity. so when jesus said let the children come to me what he actually was meaning was gather them like sheep and sit them at the back of the church with nursery rhymes and colouring sheets so we can feed them a simplified view of a few of the lord's teaching whilst completely ignoring the nuance and the fact those tales were deliberately veiled in complexity so as to ensure that only the righteous few would understand the doctrine that he preached, and in this way we can shepherd those blessed children into our particular centrist view of morality.

are you following me? good. let me tell you a story, when i was at school i wasn't the model man that i am today standing at the pulpit and teaching you how to be like me, no i was a sinner too and all the rest of it and one particular kid and i we didn't quite see eye to eye on something, thinking back now probably nothing but you know how it is one thing led to another and i slapped that motherfucker and i relished his flinch. well he didn't do anything back he just looked at me with my handprint on his face and he said you're going to regret that so i laughed at him. let's think now what he could have done differently. revenge isn't something jesus recommends for one thing and for another he didn't turn the other cheek. he had the opportunity to show me an act of faith in the lord and he consciously rejected it to instil some sort of fear in me.

now though the simplest thing to do in that situation would be to say actually, don't hurt me the way i hurt you. that's not what we did instead we cried. instead we cried. instead we cried. instead we cried and as the sweet salt water danced down our cheeks and formed into pools of brine in the deep deep cavities of our teeth we didn't stop for just one minute to ask if this was what we wanted if this was what we longed for if this was another apoetic conclusion to a broken past in a postmodern future because we'd tried. because we'd tried. because we'd tried. because we'd tried. because we'd tried

this, then, is how you should pray:

step one: stand on the desert let the sand attack your features leave you broken bleeding hopeless leave you begging for forgiveness---when you think perhaps it's over just remember that it isn't and stay standing in the desert til your will and body give in

step two humour the devil though you know they want you dead. take the bread the devil gives dont eat it piss on it instead and when the devil tells you jump then you should find the highest cliff and you should push push push push push push push (+amazing grace/to god be the glory)

step three look at your neighbour they're the girl you had a crush on back in high school you were young and thought your body was worth nothing---the crush is over but she's looking with that look that's saying come on but you know she has a husband guess your 'body's still worth nothing.

then shut your eyes! count to ten. you know nobody can see you when you can't see them. turn around, put your forehead to the ground prepare to beg for your life, and then beg, like so:

am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper am i my brothers keeper... ad nauseum

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